I'm starting out a new life. It is completely new to me. I have no plans, everything is as is and go as is. I hope to get more settled down once I find the complete circle of completion in my life in this so called New Life I call it. I met someone in August. He changed my life in a good way and there are some downer. One thing I learned this month of October 2012 of the 6th, is I acquired a gene from him. That gene was a tortorous one. It is now out of my system and I have Me back, but in the gene, I acquired from him, I got some kind of Hunger-pangs. Those were excruciating and the pangs were too. I thought I was actually pregnant but didn't acquire the same preggio signs as when I was pregnant years before. I do have a deceased daughter, she's half white and half me and she, I believe is in heaven, she is now eleven years old and the message I received from her just in September or in August was, "Be Happy and Move-On." Both are very positive and I am trying to working towards that right now. Monday, shall be a very busy day for me to do the second part of what M. old me to. I don't want to release her name on public record, but I call her by her first name, but she is my shield actually, so I keep her name private. My second child, I believe, I might of loss her in September this year was Anatasha. She would-of been my second to third child I lost. I believed she had a twin brother whom died in August. And she was the only one left or a third child, so I might of lost actually four children since 2001 now presently in 2012. I miss Anatasha a lot actually. I'm gonna have to do secret memorial everytime I think of M. and Anatasha. M. is my first child, never born but every once a a while I think of her and wonder how old she is now. It's interesting how life goes on even from Above. I'm a believer. I constantly receiving all the time and I feel ok about it. Signing off now. See ya, in the next blog. Nana H. 100612Saturday 6:48pm